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Artist : Spiritualized
Album : Ladies and Gentlemen , We Are Floating in Space

http://www.spiritualized.com/

一直不敢寫這張的review，因為他對我所造成的影響大過於巨大，光是放進CD裡，就需要極大的勇氣，更別說是要把自己的感覺給記錄下來。

【Ladies and Gentlemen , We Are Floating in Space】...專輯一開場的同名歌曲，機械冰冷的聲調就預告了傷心孤寂的開始。

寂靜闃黑的冰冷太空中，救生艇朝向銀河邊際直線飄浮著，在裡面的是一個昏厥的人，周圍的的維生設備規律的發出電子聲響，提醒了他還活著的事實。睜開眼，看出去只看到自己在玻璃上的反射。訊號不斷堅持的發射出去，卻收不到任何的回應，只有不斷地重複地開眼閉眼，以計算這是第幾個經過的星系。

在不帶一絲感情的，不斷重複的電子Loop背景中，Jason Pierce孤寂地不斷唱著

All I want in life's a little bit of love
To take the pain away
Getting strong today
A giant step each day

音樂跟影像從此密切地結合在一起，讓我再也無法以平靜的心情聽完這首歌。這張專輯只能在深夜，一個人覺得孤單的感覺才能進入那個空蕩蕩的大空中，讓悲傷的音符緩緩的在我的血液中漂流。而當弦樂的部分加入時我往往已經淚流滿面了，或許是這首歌真的太偉大，感動了我高傲的靈魂；或許是那具有穿透力的音符觸動了極力掩藏的傷口，讓它又開始流起了血來。但這樣的哭泣是幸福的，讓我覺得自己還沒有被那些亂七八糟的東西吃掉，而喪失表達情感的能力。只是，這樣的脆弱只有在極度黑暗的包圍中，才會偷偷地跑出來，把倔強的面具啃噬。

昨天，全班照畢業照，我知道這一次，又少了一個人，而且是我曾經心靈相通的伙伴。讓我又拿出Spiritulized這張令人心碎落淚的專輯。那孤獨面對茫然未來的感覺是我曾經再也不想碰觸的。
Farewell。經過了一次又一次的磨練，這次真的可以乾脆的和你說再見了。終於，我也該到了一個生命階段的結束了。有些東西，是真的該留下。

故意製造的巧合，現在傳進耳朵的是第九首【Broken Heart】，另一個會讓我落淚的段落，正適合告別的情境。每次難過到失去力量時，總是這首歌讓我能有繼續下去的勇氣的。


Broken Heart By Spiritualized


Though I have a broken heart
I'm too busy to be heartbroken
There's a lot of things that need to be done
Lord I have a broken heart

Though I have a broken dream
I'm too busy to be dreaming of you
There's a lot of things that I've gotta do
Lord I have a broken dream

And I've wasted all my time
I've gotta drink you right off of my mind
I've been told that this will heal given time
Lord I have a broken heart

I'm too busy to be heartbroken
There's a lot of things that need to be done
Lord I have a broken heart

Though I have a broken dream
I'm too busy to be dreaming of you
There's a lot of things that I've gotta do
Lord I have a broken dream

I'm too busy to be heartbroken
There's a lot of things that need to be done
Lord I have a broken heart

Though I have a broken dream
I'm too busy to be dreaming of you
There's a lot of things that I've gotta do
Lord I have a broken dream

And I've wasted all my time
I've gotta drink you right off of my mind
I've been told that this will heal given time
Lord I have a broken heart

And I'm crying all the time
I have to keep it covered up with a smile
And I'll keep on moving on for a while
Lord I have a broken heart

【Ladies and Gentlemen , We Are Floating in Space】